What we do in the meantime is usually stupid...

I've come to realize (over the nearly-25 years of my life) that what we do, if it isn't sleep, in the "meantime" is usually stupid. For example, you take a night off and end up either dancing until the wee hours of the morning or wasting away on the couch watching movies. And unless you're a professional dancer or a film critic, neither of these will help you excel in life. Sure, they may give you that extra pep in your step for a day or two, but will they really help you do and feel better in the longer run of your life?

I sit here tonight faced with a conundrum. I know I should've said no, my better judgment PLEADED for me to say no; but I said yes when another team asked me to coach. Granted, I didn't make a full committment, but I did say that I'd help out as much and as long as I can.

What's the problem, you wonder? Why should have I have said no?

I billed 100 hours in the last two weeks at work. And that's not "on the clock," that's just work that we can charge our clients.

So what, you say? ...You billed 120 hours last week alone? Awesome. I hope you have a law degree or a doctorate in medicine. I don't. I'm just a lowly English major on a starting salary with a small company. Now don't get me wrong, I love my job (especially because I know that my boss knows about this blog lol), but I've got a lot on my plate and adding another softball team to the meal is like pushing the apple into the stuffed pig's mouth.

To make things worse, it's 12U team that's going into fastpitch for the first time ever! I've played fastpitch since I was their age, but I've only coached it for approximately 4 months now! Lord have mercy on my soul. :-D

Honestly, it's going to be a lot of fun and I know that I'm sure as hell going to learn a lot about myself as a coach. I can't remember the last time I had to think about things as natural as sliding, but now I have to somehow remind myself of what you're supposed to think when you "just know to" slide. I'm really looking forward to it, but I'm not looking forward to losing 2 more nights and one more day of my week. Between writing the practice plans (because I'm the only coach on the team with experience), holding practice and then having games on Saturdays, I might just lose my mind. I'll tell you, my 16s may not be happy to see my on Sundays for their practice.

Then I think about it a little more and I think about what I want to do with my life. I probably won't ever coach an olympic team (har har, right?) and I'll probably never coach a college team, but I know I like coaching and I know I want to keep doing it. Probably becuase, even at my age, it feels kind of weird not to be out on the softball diamond on summer weekends. So, I guess it's not really something stupid that I did here. Sure it's going to make me a little more busy and a hell of a lot more tired, but it'll be worth it. 100% worth it.

Now: I'm going to write up the plan for Thursday's first 12U fastpitch practice and then I'm going to sleep...because God knows I'll need both. In the meantime, someone go get me a beer--or would that be stupid? ;)